Status of the Moment...

I should be done packing my bags for Cali.

I should be taking a nap right now.

I should be ready to go.

I should be overwhelmed with excitement for completing my undergraduate degree.

I am sitting across the room from the closet full of things to pack up into my car.

I am wide awake.

I am not ready to leave yet.

It feels like nothing important happened to me as I walked down the halls of WWU for the last time as a student.

Even though I'm coming back to Bellingham to graduate (woo hoo!) tonight was a night of goodbyes for me with quite a few people.  And now as I sit here with the door propped slightly ajar so I can hear the rain and smell the wind of summer that is fighting to reign over the month of June again, I am wishing I had another day.  Santa Cruz is going to be GREAT - it always is!  But there is a piece of me that doesn't want to leave.

Tonight was my last INN as a student.  We stood up before the community as Jim introduced us and we smiled back at the people who will be our very lives next year (so cool!).  After the INN I shared many hugs, cried a few tears, and drove an old friend home.  When I got back to Indian St., I walked down to one of my favorite houses in town and sat with some amazing guys.  Then I went on a walk in the drizzle with a favorite - so good for my heart.  And now here I am, waiting for the laundry to dry so I can toss it into a suitcase and chuck it into the trunk of JJ the car.

In a few hours I will put my new CD in my car stereo (thanks Seth Thomas!), get onto I-5 and drive south.  I will cross over the river to Oregon, drive down the coast, and cross the boarder of Oregon into the northern brown and red dirt into the heart of the redwoods of California.  By this time tomorrow I will be sleeping in a bunk bed at Mt. Cross, surrounded by the people I will share my life with for the next few months.  Pray for me.  Pray for them.  

It's gonna be good.  Even though I don't feel quite ready yet, it will be amazing - epic, if you will.