Don't Worry - it's Just a Process

So, currently I am processing life, processing roommates, processing school, processing summer decisions that need to be made (which is silly because I think I have it figured out), processing elements of my heart, just processing processing, processing left and right, up and down.

Here is the thing about me processing. I enter emotional hibernation mode. I am not mad or frustrated, sad or upset. I am simply processing. When my expression is blank and my gaze is off in the distance, it does not mean that I need consoling or tips on how to relieve stress. I just need to process. You can't read me like a book, you can't analyze my expression or the words that come out of my mouth. It's just a time to let the thoughts that have been kicked up in the creek that runs through my mind to settle so the waters can be clear again. I just need that time - that moment or two (maybe even three).

So for those of you who care, it's just a process. Don't worry. In a few moments I'll return back to normal. Promise.