Wrestling with Myself

Not gonna lie - I'm really wrestling with myself right now. For weeks I haven't been able to sleep. I just lay awake at night, wrestling with the thoughts that fill my mind. Why am I not content? Why am I afraid of letting go of the old and reaching out for the new? Why do I want what I do not need? Why does my heart ache when the night sky falls?

Wrestling with yourself is the worst thing in the world. There is no one to beat or be beaten by. You simply struggle internally, becoming more and more frustrated by the minute because you cannot win and you cannot loose. The fight is constant and consistent, unwavering. You know where to hit yourself below the belt and you know how to block it (or recover quickly from the hit, since you know it's coming at you anyways).

When will peace come? How do we reach that point of accepting reality, looking forward, moving on, and realizing peace within ourselves and the world we surround ourselves with? I long for that peace.....